I'm sorry, because you valued comfort and self-preservation too highly you have missed your opportunity! It was an opportunity of a lifetime - to go on a fantastic adventure to His will. Yes, there would be set-backs, difficulties, but His Joy will sustain, His peace will be enough, His love will triumph!
You need to read THIS.
Oh! OK...since you look so sorrowful I'll give you just one more chance!
A little man taps you on the back. As you turn around the jovial, red-faced dwarf smiles with the warmth of a thousand sunrises. "My name's Ecarg", he says to you,"I've been sent to tell you that,though you've missed it this time, you have been given much grace - my Lord is drawing you to His beautiful purpose for your life. Don't strive, just yield!"
He leads you back again to the pond.